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"Who I am and what I want are a secret."

Scholarships can be a pain in the ass at times. Well, to those who are under scholarship and such, congratulations! All you need to do is to maintain your grades and such. To those still looking for one, well, let's just say you and I are on the same boat.

I've been searching back and forth, flipping from web pages to web pages, and all I see are scholarships dated back in 2007. For a moment there, I cursed myself for not looking hard enough last year. But then again, there's no use looking back and whining about it. Just turn away, look straight, and walk forward.

For someone like me, who can be pretty clingy to the past, it's a hard step, but an inevitable one. Often, it just...chucks you into someplace unknown and before you even know it, you're already on that road, walking. Walking without a reason. Walking without a cause. Walking, simply hoping that eventually, it'll lead you back to where you begin so you could fix the problems and such. Of course, we all know that will never happen. And time machines are non-existent. And I doubt there'll be one in the next millennium.

I digress.

Anyway, scholarships are in abundant, of course. But for my case, they cease to exist.

"Mass comm is an easy subject~ anyone can do that~"

"Mass comm doesn't need funds, scholarships, whatsoever,"

"People who take mass comm are dropouts etc."

"Mass comm are for people who didn't do well in their SPM and has no choice but to do it,"

"Who needs mass comm? We're in desperate need for engineers! doctors! doctors! doctors!"

...

I feel like us mass comm-ers are being pushed aside, unwanted, and etc. Yes, I'm aware of the fact that there's too many of us, and most of us are in this because we don't have a choice. But a minority of us are in it because we want to, because it's our passion, because we want to make a change, a huge impact, on the world. And how else can we do it if not through the biggest human-linker in the world.

The media.

we may not be as smart as those doctors, or engineers, and others involved in that field. But we know our thing, we have contacts, and we are the reason why those doctors and engineers are made world-known.

...

stupid government and their mentality. stupid science stream students and other people's mentality on that stream. just because we're in ****ing art stream doesn't mean we're ****ing stupid. Well, some of us are, but minority of us aren't.

*sigh*

boy do i feel like i've made a huge impact here.

and by that, i meant i didn't. I'm just ranting. Just like everyone else.

**** this.