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Aufsteigende Flügel is German for "Soaring Wings", a beautiful piano piece composed by Masashi Hamauzu. It is a retreat, a place for me to speak my mind, my thoughts, and my ideas. I bid you all welcome and please, enjoy your stay while you can.

In case you're wondering, the song you hear playing in the background is called Memories, composed and performed by Kow Otani for the best PS2 game of all time, Shadow of the Colossus. This was one of the many unused tracks from the game, so I thought I might do it justice playing this lovely track here. It may take a while to load, but please pause it and give it a good listen. Otani makes good music (unfortunately, this is the only one I know of), and this is one of them. Enjoy!



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Wednesday, July 23, 2008, 12:46
Salut!

Yes, it appears that I have chosen a new skin for my blog. Sad to say, I can't find the link to the skin's link to get the original picture. So yes, I may have to drop that skin for now.


Such a shame, it had a wonderful layout, making use of both sides in the blog. Really, why can't other skins work like that? Why do they have to cram EVERYTHING on one end or the other? And do not question me on navigational blogs. I find those terribly annoying and I know most of you can't be bothered to click on those pesky little icons just to read my blog, eh?


Bah, enough of my complaints.


OFFICIAL DATE OF RETURN: THURSDAY (24th of July 2008)

OFFICIAL TIME OF RETURN: Afternoon


But I'll most probably be going to the hospital first. My father rang me up yesterday eve and told me that I had a new cousin in the family. Well, I was munching my kebabs and lekors when I heard the news so my mind didn't exactly process that information right. When he mentioned my aunt, I quickly remembered. XD


So yes, another new bouncing bundle of joy in my family. Pure joy.


Hmm, aside from that, I suppose there's nothing much.


OH YES. I WANT TO COMPLAIN ABOUT ONE THING.
TO QUIT UITM, I HAVE TO RUN AROUND AND COLLECT SIGNATURES FROM THE IMPORTANT PEOPLE. AND NO, I CANNOT DO IT WITH CONVENIENCE.


I HAVE TO GET IT IN ORDER.


ORDER.


ORDER.


ALLOW ME TO ENGRAVE THAT WORD INTO YOUR VERY HEADS.


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IT DOESN'T MATTER IF ONE OFFICE IS AT THE OTHER END OF THE CAMPUS, I HAVE TO GET IT IN


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GOD, I'M BLOODY PISSED WITH THE SIGNATURE SYSTEM. REALLY.


Thank you for your time. Hope to see all of you soon, my friends. Farewell. =)

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Tuesday, July 22, 2008, 13:35
She's Coming Back

This is torturing.

I have both my Father and Mother begging me to either go back to Taylor's or stay here in UiTM. BEGGING, mind you, not telling.

Part of me wants me to act like the cruel person I can be and just run off to somewhere, but that's not how things work, isn't it? And so yes, I decided to take a stand.

As much as I love it here in UiTM, I feel like it won't truly help with my studies. Though it will benefit others around me (because I had a year of Foundation and a semester of Degree), it most certainly won't benefit me.

As much as I love my friends here in UiTM, I must put my responsibilities and my thoughts for my future as high as possible. True, they are the nicest bunch of people I've ever met (oh, don't take this comment to heart, my fellow Taylorians, you're all very nice too), but I can't let that thought stop me from making the right decision.

Right? Do you think it's right?

My Mother thinks I'm making the wrong decision to go back to Taylor's. My Father thinks otherwise. Well, we both can tell that they're both biased thoughts, but I have to choose a side somehow, right?

And as much as I want to remain here, my heart still goes back to Taylor's. I want to complete my Degree there, and then get a proper job with my own income so that I can help my sister later when she enters her tertiary education level. And I have to admit, 5 years in University is a waste of time when I'm already close to completing my Degree with UniSA (2 1/2 years to go).

And I don't want to be so far away from home. Especially far away from my sister.

She needs me. We both need each other.

So, I have made my decision. I will return to Taylor's, probably around this week. And because of that, my Mother will cancel my loan and will not contribute a single cent in my education in Taylor's. My Degree in Journalism will be fully sponsored by my Father and only him.

*sighs* Anything to protect one's pride, eh? O Mother, I love you so.

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Monday, July 14, 2008, 12:13
Horrible Work

You could say that, and at the same time, you could say something even more different altogether. Ah well, who am I kidding?

I wrote a little poem during class. Of course, I was never one for poems, but it was our lecturer that made us do it. No, I'm not blaming her. In fact, I think she's actually doing a good job. A very good job.

It happens every time we have our English class and after doing exercises here and there. I must admit that she has sharp eyes because once she notices our boredom, she would tell us to shut our books and ask us to do something fun in return. Well, it's fun for me because I love to write. And so today, she asked us to write a poem on something that is not present in the classroom.

Some wrote on food, others on the loved ones, their homes, or their nice little rooms. My friend sitting next to me wrote on her writer's block. XD

Me? Well, I'm sure most of you know what I would write on...but blah! This is my blog! XD And since I didn't get the chance to present my poem in front of my classroom, I'll type it in here for other people to see it (that is, if there is any who would bother to read it).

My eyes read the words,
My ears listen to her voice;
But vision shows me swords
with cacophonies of noise.

Jaime Lannister and Lyanna Stark,
A Feast For Crows and A Dance With Dragons;
Two characters that has been marked,
Two books I wish to covet.

I dreamt I was a knight,
Riding gallantly in battle;
Oh, but it gave such a fright,
When she gave me works to settle.

My mind drifts anyway,
To worlds strange and unknown;
But it didn't stay that way,
When verbs of two were shown.

Someone help me please!
I hear voices in the back of my head
filled with promises so sweet and ease
that will soon leave my mind dead.

Blah, it can't be helped, some sentences didn't even make sense, but the word 'she' was meant to be my lecturer. I could have done better if there was food in my tummy. Oh well, tough luck.

Then again, I was never one for poems. Deciphering one was hell, what more, writing them down word by word.

Ah, yesterday was a fun day in town (Mahkota Parade, to be precise), I must say. But the process to get there is...hell (THE BUS, THE HORRIBLE BUS, GOD SAVE US WHEN WE RODE IN IT). Yes, is there anything worse than hell? Hm, I can't quite say because I've never experienced hell before, so I'll just use whatever that is closest to that kind of experience.

Boredom.

But then again, it is not exactly boredom. I had eye candies to sweeten my little heart and provide some entertainment for my watchful eyes. Hmm, and there was a movie too but I've already watched that movie, sadly. Then again, seeing that nice shot of that actor who played Wesley Gibson in "Wanted" was good enough.

And I got my hot pants! =D Sadly, I can't show you any pics yet because I've been terribly busy lately. We're already got our first assignment (for AGAMA. =.= And it has to be done in MALAY). When was the last time I wrote anything in Malay? XD

Oh well. And as for my decision, I still have yet to decide whether I would be staying or going. Perhaps by the 21st of July...or somewhere in that week.

Well, that's all for today, my friends. I do hope I can update my blog soon.

Until then, farewell.

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Sunday, July 6, 2008, 18:02
Here I Am

I have finally found an internet hotspot! Well, it's more of a cyber cafe, but meh, for now, whatever works.


I just came back from my Father's today, and I must say, I missed home. Terribly. I miss the freedom I have to go here and there; I miss my late night sleeps and late night wakes; I miss my friends and beloved; I miss the malls; I miss eating good food; I miss my PS2; I miss my room; I miss the TV; I miss the Internet (shaddup, the ones at home is faster~ XD); I miss my piano...


If I actually went on, the list would take me days to finish~


Oh well, so far so good. Orientation was hell, and I tell ya, sleeping at 1am and getting up at 3am is NOT a nice feeling. PLUS, hiking in campus IN your baju kurung is NOT a nice feeling. PLUS, having your lunch/breakfast/dinner with the seniors yelling at you to hurry is NOT a nice feeling.


Oh, and bugs are nasty.


Otherwise, it was a real good experience. I feel like I was back in my scouting days, only this one is a wee bit...tougher than usual. AND, I'm in baju kurung.
I bet you all are enjoying your holidays now, aren't ya? Well, most of ya. Some of ya will be busy with the Carnival, eh? Oh well...


I have made friends here, in fact, plenty. Some turned out to be better than I expected 'em to be, and some prove to be more intellectual and smarter than those back in Taylor's (no, not that I'm calling y'all stupid or anything, it's just that I've met some people in Taylor's who are...well...you get the idea). I was truly surprised.


Well, so far, my feelings for UiTM is nothing but a mixture of hate and love. Its ranking is slightly below Taylor's...but yea, I'm getting used to this place now. XD


As for whether I'll be staying for good or not, I've yet to decide. My classes have not started and I am in no place to judge this place based on the sufferings I went through the orientation. So yea...still waiting.


I shall decide on the third week of July. And if I do return, you will see me on that particular weekend itself.


Until then, so long and farewell. Enjoy thy holidays and...well, I pray that I'll survive this.


PS: I MISS YOU. I MISS ALL OF YOU. I MISS YOU ALL SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH.

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