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She lives in one small room
Over the convienence store
She had big plans once
She doesn't have them anymore

Got little diamonds in her ears
But she's got coal in her eyes
It's been night so long now
She doesn't think the sun will rise

And she asks, "Is this all there is?
Won't this ever end?
There must be a better place"

Looking for another world
I'm not sure we should
I'm not sure salvation lies there
There is bad as well as good
Let us love each other now
As if this world is all there is

He wanted to believe
In the dreams he held so dear
He swam against the tide
But he was drowning in his fear

On the lost horizon
The goal kept shrinking down in size
It's been night so long now
He doesn't think the sun will rise

And he says, "This can't be all there is
There must be something more
There must be a better place"

Looking for another world
I'm not sure we should
I'm not sure salvation lies there
There is bad as well as good
Let us love each other now
As if this time is all there is

Lying here beside you
I wonder what will become of us
Of you and me, oh, of all of us
So many dangers, oh so much at stake

I'm scared of what I cannot see, my love
I am so scared

I'll help you if I can
I believe I've got to try
We all have our parts to play
And I am playing mine

I don't know about another world
What beyond this curtain lies
I know it's been night a long time
But one day the sun will rise
Yes, one day the sun will rise

Another World
sung by Mackenzie Phillips

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This is a lovely song, I thought. The lyrics were beautiful and the emotion present in this song was strong. I feel a certain longing in here...and...well, I don't know if this could relate itself to what's happening now but...I feel it does.

The song was supposed to be talking about loss and moving on. In the show where Phillips played her character and sang this song, she was basically singing her late husband's song. And in a way, it talks about moving on.

For me though, I see it as...the many bumps and toughies present in a relationship. It shows a bond that is strong and would go through whatever for a brighter day. Despite the challenges, both of them would play their part in trying to repair the damage that was done. And eventually, 'the sun will rise'.

I have erred in so many ways, at times, I even wonder what the hell I just did. I can't even start on 'Why' when I can't find the answer for the 'What'. It's...strange. I know this would sound like I'm trying to run away from responsibilities, but...I must confess, I was an entirely different being when it comes to doing all those. My mind shifts, my thoughts differ from my usual self, and...I become someone else. Perhaps a shadow, a puppet, a queen, a shapeshifter; I was not myself.

But like all dreams, they would all come to an end, and I would soon be facing the real world and what I have with me at that moment.

My bond with him...it is strong. I can feel it. And I am convinced that he is the one for me, the one I would want to spend my whole life with. For that, I have discarded those visions, dreams, and fantasies of the stranger I wished to have met, and replaced it with the real one, the one that is standing right before me.

Today, I have said my farewells to the stranger and bid him safe passage in his life. I thanked him for his gifts from his realm and hope he finds someone else out there.

But starting from today onwards, I will look at no one else.

No one but him.

And I love him very very much.