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"Who I am and what I want are a secret."

It was thanks to me for leaving my phone in my room and leaving my computer that made me miss a day out with him.

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I was planning to go out today so tomorrow I can go out on my own and do my stuff. But, thanks to me~ (many "thanks", actually) I missed it. Ah well...I suppose it's either I do it today or just plan not to see anyone tomorrow or something.

But for some reason, I feel like something is amiss. I'm still dressed in my normal t-shirt (I had a haircut while wearing this shirt, and I still am wearing it now. Itchy.), got my 3/4 jeans on. Before this, my mom bathed me (nyaa~ I know I sound like a kid here but she insists on giving me a scrub on my body and hair. O.o...) and my hair smells strangely nice. O.o... But much to my dismay, I won't be going out till this eve. =P So much for all that~

Oh well, at least the scrub was nice. =) It's been a long while since someone bathed me. What more, my mom. No, not my mother, she's a bit too busy for that. Mom can be really nice sometimes...really really nice, but by saying this, I'm not being fair to my Mother, who has brought me into this world and took care of me until now.

I suppose because Mother had it hard, and she's getting old... (Mother's waaaaay older than Mom, so yea ^_^; ). And for old women at Mother's age, still working, having kids below the age of 10, I suppose it's rather stressful for her and I suppose that's the reason why her patience is rather short. Lol, it's not "suppose" anymore. It IS short. XD

Mom's younger, and earning a bit more than Mother (she's a doctor, managing a hospital and such). But she has two of her kids who are also the same age like Mother's other two. She comes home later than Mother, and...no, I shouldn't say this.

Haha, it's not right comparing your Mothers' and to see who's better than the other. I mean, yea, rebellions and revolts happen, but that's normal. Even for both mother AND stepmother. But sometimes, you just can't help it, you know?

I mean, if you have a horrible husband and then you see a kinder man, wouldn't you stop to compare?

So yea. But I'll stop right here and now. I try not to be on either one of their sides. And yes, the same applies to my Father and Dad.

As the daughter of my Mother and Father, I must remain in between, side with no one, and protect my sister at all costs. In the end, no matter what people say and what THEY say, I only have my sister, and my sister me. We only have each other, and me, being the eldest, have responsibilities to protect the younger one.

Of course, my other four siblings are counted in as well, but hey~ they have my Father and Mom, Mother and Dad. Often, I think they're much too busy for us two.

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This has been stretched on too far. And I think I've said this a couple of times before. Haha, sorry to bore you readers~ But blogging should be about what goes on in your head, what you want to jot down, and what you want to say. An online diary, where people would stop to read about your life. That is, if they bothered to.

Oh well, I'll just stop here and...well, do some other stuff then~ I should stop thinking too much about them. What's done is done, c'est la vie~! XD Just smile and forget~ =)