Aufsteigende Flügel is German for "Soaring Wings", a beautiful piano piece composed by Masashi Hamauzu. It is a retreat, a place for me to speak my mind, my thoughts, and my ideas. I bid you all welcome and please, enjoy your stay while you can.

In case you're wondering, the song you hear playing in the background is called Memories, composed and performed by Kow Otani for the best PS2 game of all time, Shadow of the Colossus. This was one of the many unused tracks from the game, so I thought I might do it justice playing this lovely track here. It may take a while to load, but please pause it and give it a good listen. Otani makes good music (unfortunately, this is the only one I know of), and this is one of them. Enjoy!

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"Who I am and what I want are a secret."

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Comrades

Al-Literati-on

Christina

Deborah

Evonn

FiCM Forum

Florence

Germaine

G-Play Forums

Hannah

Jason

Jolyn

Joseph

Jordache Wee

Ju Enn

Max

Mistcakes

Mr. Wood

Mun Suet

Najat

Nash

Qiki

Quickening

Rachel Au

Rachel Law

Rashie

Sarah

Surekha

Syafiq

Tash

Wei Hong

Winnie

Yan Sin

Zheng Joo

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Ah, how long has it been since I’ve last posted a proper post? Rather long, it seems. The last three posts were tags (though I must admit the first tag of the three proved to be the most trivial tags of them all. I don’t often have men in my mind, so yes), and now, I shall break that chain and post a proper post.

Yes, so what is new?

Ah yes, yesterday was the day where I first confessed to Aiman of my feelings (though it was meant to be a joke at some point (April Fool’s), but I did have feelings for him at that point). By all that, I meant that yesterday was the confession-anniversary day. XD Goodness gracious, a year has passed since then, and once more, I reminisce those moments.

Funny how it all began with a book. Sandman, by Neil Gaiman.

And from then on, it branched out to several others. Music was after that (it was Mezame, a soundtrack from Mai-Hime by Yuki Kajiura), though I mistaken it for Ensei, it still shows my interest in his kind of music. This made me even more curious.

And next was the so-called ‘perfectly-planned-scenario’, or so my cousins claimed it to be (it wasn’t my fault though. 0.o nor was it his doing. XD).

I invited him to join my friends and I for a movie at Cineleisure on that very day itself. Movie wasn’t that interesting (sorry Chel, I’m not a big fan of…angry-looking-stomping men ^_^; ) but it was in that movie where I warmed him when his hands were cold. Well, you could say I was trying to reel him in. Closer, and closer.

Then one by one, my friends had to leave, starting with Debs and Chel. It was then just us three (me, Aiman, and Rae), but later, Rae had to leave us so then, it was just the two of us.

Perfectly-planned-scenario, eh?

We our dinner at Caffe’ 1920, and I persuaded him to try the Timballo. XD

And it was then when I found out that he also played SHIN MEGAMI TENSEI: NOCTURNE. It was such a big deal for me because you see, from the day I first purchased the copy of that game (that was…when I was Form 1 or 2, I think), I have never met anyone else who played that game. Ever. That was, until the 30th of March, 2007. Nothing could express my happiness and relief at that moment when I found out about it.

Of course, since I have been single for three years (since Form 3) and was stuck at having a crush on the same guy for two whole years (before Foundation), the only way to fill in that loneliness was through my stories, my games, and my books. Oh, no, don’t be mistaken. I have plenty of friends, though I only kept some close to me ever since one of them…betrayed me in some way (she claims I betrayed her, but I simply cannot remember how. Yes, I believe someone planted seeds of destruction in this. Oh, no worries, we made up with each other and are friends again, though not very attached as I was back then). But yes, to me, something that involves a game (like how Aiman knew SMT: Nocturne) excites me and made me even more curious.

And on the 1st of April, I confessed to him. Knowing my past relationship (yes, I was turned down by Aaron AND he made me tell him why I liked him. AND he told me other people have told him this before and he declined them all. Oh well, f*** that.), I would very much expect another turned down offer. After all, I acted a bit too hasty on this. But there was that something in me (and it’s been there for quite some time) that told me to do things as fast as I can, grab any chances that come by my way and claim it as mine. This was the very case itself.

Much to my surprise, he responded differently. And my feelings were returned by his.

Aah, such joy (shock first, then joy), such overwhelming sense of joy.

That confession was done yesterday, a year ago.

And tomorrow will be the anniversary of our first relationship.

Hehe, the four months of separation between us will be remembered, of course. But the rest is history. All that matters is how much we’ve learned from the past and to continue walking on.

Here’s to us, Aiman. May nothing ever comes in our way again.

May we both love each other and not let this feeling die.

To us, to the both us! Now and forevermore.

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