a l l i e

"Who I am and what I want are a secret."

I can expect to see blog post about the fire at our campus today. LOL, and yes, I'll be sure to check on it by tomorrow. However, I'm a wee bit tired to load the pictures in my computer.

And to be honest, I'm pretty much down in the dumps now.

Gah, the tension between my Father's family and my Mother's stretches on. Yes, of course, I asked my Mother to extend my stay here at my Father's. But honestly, when you think about it, why the hell should I ask? I mean, this is my Father's house. MY. FATHER. My own blood and flesh, what's wrong about staying here longer than there?

And of course, I do go back there from time to time. And at times, I do extend my stay there and not go to my Father's even though my sister does. Bah, I don't know what goes on with them but I heard a lot from my stepmother about my mother and how she's...well, sending insulting messages to my Father about my Stepmother. I know, I know, my Mother's jealous and all, but GODDAMNIT. Can't she just.......GAH.

GOD, I JUST CAN'T WAIT TO MOVE OUT, AWAY FROM ALL OF THEM.

TWO MORE YEARS, PEOPLE, TWO MORE YEARS.

And because of that, my Stepmother's giving me the cold shoulder because of my Mother's insult. Well, who wouldn't, right? I mean, I'm my Mother's daughter and not hers. Perhaps I should have gone back to my Mother's? *Shrugs* I don't know.

But if I get my part-time job at my cousin's, and if I manage to find a room to rent or something, somewhere nearby, I'll move there. 'Tis unlikely that I will, of course, but god, the tension in both houses. Keep your wars to yourselves, children! GODDAMNIT.

I'm going out of my mind now, aren't I?

Okay, okay, stay calm. Just...breathe, Allie, breathe. Let it pass through like it always does, think of assignments (an even more annoying problem, but better than the one right now) and Saaya. And maybe even ramen with Ryu and Kaworu. Or a night with Ryo. Either one, anyone...

*sigh*