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"Who I am and what I want are a secret."

If I keep this up, I think the letters on my keyboard will come off soon enough. Is it me, or has Streamyx gotten slower these past few days? Perhaps it's because other people are using the same connection as mine (leeching, I expect). My neighbour next door (whom I used to leech from last time) has developed a method to ward off all leechers. It ain't as effective as those with passwords and blocking-IP-addresses thingies, but it served him better. I was thinking of doing the same thing starting from this day onwards.

Unfortunately, I use internet for...hmm, let's see, the whole day, perhaps?

*sigh* I should look around if I could do the whole IP-address-blocking thingie. There SHOULD be one for Streamyx, right?

Ah well.

I was looking through all the stories I've typed out in my folder and realised that none of them were finished. Well, just two short stories, but that's just it. A short story and a story isn't the same and...well, you get the idea.

The thing is, I have the story set in my mind. I know what happens next, I know how it will all end, I know how it all connects to each other. But the words needed to link them all together almost seem like it was never there. Sure, I can start out with just word by word, then everything will come together after that. But to actually get my mind to work is the hardest thing to do.

I suppose I'm just too lazy. Or maybe I needed more initiative, like the one for the Animax Awards (and nope, didn't finish that one either since I found out that it was too long).

There's so many ideas in my mind, so many stories, yet the words...the linkers...

It seems to me that I have to embark on a quest to find these linkers so I can finally weave stories into perfection.

Let the dragons come,

let the lovers fly from the grasp of my hand,

let the darkness consume my soul,

let the evil wizard shatters the very vessel of my soul,

let the king imprison me for treason,

I will not rest until I find those linkers. My quest for the perfection in the form of words will not be thwarted by such petty distractions!