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And now I can blog peacefully. =)

Let's see...well, yes, for all you people who's keeping up with the updates in this blog, rejoice and be merry for I have updated! Hail~ =P

Lots has happened, and I suppose I've been going out a lot. I got an extra RM100 for taking care of the house while both my parents are gone. And recently, I've just watched Elizabeth (though I missed 1/3 of the movie in the beginning, thanks to Ikea's wonderful meatballs and Russ~ XD), and I must say, it's quite a good watch. I've always been a big fan of Cate Blanchett (sp?), and I like her roles and such, always portraying the strong lead actress. An exception to Lord of The Rings, she only played as Lady Galadriel, but even that sort of fills me with...light.

*sighs* She's beautiful, I must say. For someone old, she seemed so wise and...well, yea, beautifully wise. I don't know if others feel the same way that I do, but, heck. This is similar to the feeling I had whenever I look at Lacus Clyne.

She's just beautiful. Not just her voice, or her hair, or her looks. It's just that everything about her seemed so...serene and peaceful. I suppose if I were born a man, I would fall in love with her kind. After all, I've always been a clingy person, and clinging on to women such as these...well, it's a benefit.

But if that were the case, I'm more fit to be a woman than a man.

Then again, issues such as gender has always been one of the things my mind often ponders about whenever boredom sits with me. I remember my maid telling me that I was born wrong (LOL), saying that I was suppose to be born as a man instead of a woman. For some odd reason, she sees me that way. Then my Dad (stepfather, actually) would take me out to do the things men do, often treating me more of a son than a daughter. I would get in touch with electronics and woodworks. But sometimes, he'd force me to go work in the kitchen with him as well~ XD That was fun.

And I notice that I tend to dress like a man whenever I'm at my Mother's, often guarding my Mother and siblings like a brother would often do. I would speak in a lowered tone and will subconsciously imitate a man's voice.

I wonder, is that normal?

Then again, it's just these things, that's all. I'm still a girl, all in all. Most claim I'm like a mother to them.

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Bright future for mom-hood? Sounds...all right, I guess. ^_^; After all, I plan to have four kids.

Oh well, I found something I really like to watch. Well, it sorts of cheers me up whenever I'm feeling down in the dumps, reminding me of Shar's comments on it.