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"Who I am and what I want are a secret."

Yes, forgive me for my typo, TASH. And forgive me for not posting for so long. PR has taken most of my time.

Well, to be precise, Bedlam was the cause of it. XD I created a new character in there so yes. Most of my time was used to develop that character's personality and background history, but I'm still a wee bit confused about this character. His name is Seere, by the way. A demon of the Ars Goetia and an androgynous being as well, but mostly referred to as a "he". And yes, I'm still thinking hard on his personality.

In my mind, I had a strange image of him being a very cool-looking person. Book-ish, calm, and collected. But these traits were similar to another character of mine there (Razakel). So yes, scratch all that. And now the thought of a power-hungry demon who would go out of his way to achieve power and supremacy above the rest comes into mind.

But a cooler looking one, of course. Not like those bombastic/flamboyant way of gathering power etc etc. In my mind, I was thinking of Lelouch (Code Geass) or some devious character like my I.F. (Fukami/Rachtna).

Oh well, so much for that. I still need to plan more about Seere and probably develop Razakel's story. (Psst, Razakel is not his real name, it was just a title for those who serve under King Asmodeus. In fact, he's someone else altogether...someone...higher than the other demons in Ars Goetia. Hehehehe...)

Anyway, yes, updates in life.

First news: I got my PTPTN loan! All that is left is to just...sign a few documents here and there, fix those necessary parts and voila! I will be able to withdraw the money to pay my fees for the next semester (and if there's extra, I MIGHT want to use to travel to Brisbane. =3), and pay back the 9k I borrowed from my stepmom for the SSPN account.

Second news: ...yes, nothing much goes around my life. But I suppose the things in my mind right now are both the PTPTN loan and the UiTM interview I went the other day.

Apparently, I need not dance, sing, or act. They just asked me about some of the local movies I watched (I answered Baik Punya Cilok, Pontianak, and Buli. Apparently, the director of the movie 'Mami Jarum' was there and he looked a wee bit pissy when I didn't mention his movie. =S). Strangely though, I found out that I was the only candidate whom they questioned on international movies. So yes, they asked for three, I gave 'em three;


Oh well. Other than that, everything went well. They seem to like me, I guess, though maybe a wee bit...cold. Honestly, they look scary, especially the lady there. But well, they told me that they were afraid that I might choose Communication over this course if they actually offered this course. So...hmm...my chances on getting this course? I'm not entirely sure myself, but my Mother has high hopes on this.

Hehe, and I might seriously consider this course too. It's affordable and...well, I like writing without restrictions. Art is about freedom, and it is within the art of words that I find myself flying freely in the sky.

I gave 'em two of my stories. One of them thought it was a bit too American. O.o...

Right. Well, those weren't my best stories yet. I have more in here, but I was not told to bring any of them with me. =S Sheesh. Talk about competence. *Sigh* Oh well, 'tis not my place to complain. I only pray that I will get it and then, I'll properly decide on whether to continue in Taylor's or to move to UiTM for this course.

Right, that's all for today. I'll be continuing my PR work now. Farewell.

Ah, another long period of no posts. Due to lazyness, I must say. Of course, a lot of things happened yesterday and the days before this (aside from Aiman being extra-extra nice to me, sending me back. To Mother's. THRICE in a week~!! =3). Some I was told not to blog about in here while some I just forget...

Oh well, those has happened and that's that. I will be talking about today.

I skipped CCS today, and found out that my escape was worthwhile! THEY WERE TALKING ABOUT VIRUSES. WOW. Well, good thing I didn't attend. I was still busy choosing a song for my presentation (which I thought I could present today, but...), juggling between

Now this is a fun song~! Upbeat! Fast-paced! And rather sexy in a way (the way the two singers were singing at each other, I meant). The female singer's rather pretty, I must say. But the song didn't somewhat match with what I thought about the song when I first read the lyrics. He seems to be having fun and going in clubs and such...

But, after much thinking (and negotiations), I've chosen Take Me To The Riot by Stars! =3 Controversial, yes! I can relate it to the Sufiah Yusof story~ Prostitution. An interesting topic.

Right, now that that's settled, I will move on to what happened today.

Syafiq was planning to drop out from college and go straight to work. And well...knowing me and Tash and Jules, we told him off. Well, not EXACTLY telling him off. We just thought that it wasn't a good idea and that he shouldn't go for it. I mean, yea, well, anyone would kill to get into his position right now. And almost everyone in this world hates to work, but they have no choice. And here he is, trying to rush into the working world...

I just thought it's not very appropriate, but blame my upbringing for this. I've been raised in a family where all these result-study-how-many-A's-did-you-get comes into play. A lot. I've been compared a lot with my cousins and such, so yes, automatically my mind rejects that idea. But then again, I don't know him THAT well to judge his motives so...I can't really say much.

*sighs* Well, in the end, it's something that he wants to do and I am in no position to stop him in any way. I just pray that he knows what he's doing.

It's rather sad though, seeing people this way. I mean, yea, it's what they want and all, but my mind kept going back to the ones who work because they have no other choice but to do so. Those, I can understand. But...to just throw away your opportunity to experience life as a student in college is like...throwing a huge chunk of your life from you.

Every person in this world (well, maybe not all of them, but for those who could afford education) deserves to at least enter college/university once before stepping into the corporate world. I mean, if you have the chance, then go for it! If you don't like it, find something else that you like! But...well, if you're already in it and you find yourself not really liking it, just go on with it. I mean, well, if you quit, it's just a waste of your parent's money. If you don't quit and continue with the thing you don't like, well, at least you'd learn something along the way, no?

Even if they're all just theories and dull assignments, it's still something for everyone to learn. Besides, your parents are giving you the chance to let you enjoy campus life! Take it! You'll never get this opportunity ever again!

But...well, if that is his choice, then like I said earlier, I can't help it.

And all this talk about universities brought me to another issue.

Just the other day, I got the blue card from PTPTPN saying that my application is accepted and is being processed. Well, rather hopeful, but my status is still not clear. So I can't hope too much. I have to hold on to the EPF form a little while longer. And my declaration letter on my father's disappearance as well.

Another one was an offer from UiTM (Universiti Teknologi MARA) for me to do a Diploma in stage play scriptwriting. 0.o Well, it was more of an interview for this Sunday. And the audition seems a wee bit odd because...I was told to sing...dance...and act out a scene from the lines of a script included in there. Also, I'm supposed to analyse TWO malay movies.

Sure, I don't mind. I mean, I like P.Ramlee. But...another malay movie would most probably be "Baik Punya Cilok". That was hilarious but...I can't quite remember most of it. Then again, I have a feeling I have to diversify my movie genre.

BUT I DON'T WANT TO ANALYSE THE STUPID ROMANTIC MALAY MOVIE. BLEGH. HORRIBLE. SERIOUSLY.

Even Puteri Gunung Ledang was...not good. I bet the Musical was much better.

Oh well. And I may have to skip the dancing part. I can't dance, though I could sing. I'll most probably play a piece on the piano or something...XDD

Ahh, Mother doesn't seem to happy with this (she wanted me to get Communication from UiTM, but oh well. Too bad) but she told me to go along with it anyway. XD

Problem is, my Father's not suppose to know about this...nor do anyone on the other side there...

*sigh* This is troublesome, really.